I’ve reached about 27k… Yet, I don’t feel more motivated. I sometimes wish I were religious. If I were, I would, at this moment, pray that I don’t burn out. Yet, I can see it coming. I feel it in my mind and body. Now, the only thing keeping me afloat is my stubbornness and will. Should any of those two fall, I fear I might not finish.
My decision to call day ten a milestone might sound strange, especially when day 15 (halfway through) seems to be more apt in comparison. However, I want to take this opportunity to look back at the project.
As I mentioned a while back, I am working on a revision of the first novel I really tried to write. Back then, I stopped at 65k words, which I finished writing by the end of the year. The premise had gotten out of control and I seemed to be chasing a leprechaun to get its gold without realizing the truth; leprechauns don’t fucking exist. My novel was crap.
Now, twenty thousand words into it, I already feel different about the new story. I had my doubts, thinking that I would go the same path, creating the same story with an synthetic story for a plot.
I’ve been concentrating in the characters, using every scene to mold them. This has led the story to a slightly different place than I originally wanted, but I haven’t fully deviated. If anything, I’ve grown attached to these fictional characters, even feeling bad for the things I make them go through. I know people always say, “don’t count your chickens before they hatch.” But as I look at this story, I feel that it has great potential.
I’ve also been doing something different than in previous years. I am leaving notes on the documents as I go. I also keep a separate notebook where I take notes by hand, little scribbles that maintain continuity. It’s helped a lot.
Anyway, I just felt like commenting on the progress. Yet, I feel I still need to justify this random post.
Last year, I failed NaNoWriMo. It sucked. I felt awful since the year before I had succeeded and some people I knew praised (an empty praise at that, but a praise none the less) me for completing it. So today marks pretty much an anniversary with my failure. At this moment, a year ago, I saw myself writing, feeling very good about the story. I felt that I could really finish it this time. But alas, I failed.
I feel very similar to last year. However, I’ve been writing a lot more than usual. I am technically a full day ahead, planning to get further. I am already bumping my minimum word count to two thousand a day. That will get me to the goal faster.
Yet, I feel something is very different from previous years. Although I am still trying to make it to fifty thousand words by the end of the month, I want to actually finish this novel. I don’t want to write sixty five thousand words I will staple together and throw into a box in my apartment. I want to have a real manuscript to work with. So, I’ve changed my goals a little.
Fifty thousand is still the goal for this month. I want to complete NaNoWriMo as every other participant this year. However, I want to build upon previous failures. I want to go beyond those fifty thousand and work my way up. That’s why I am writing a day ten update. I’ve reached the first ten days of a longer journey, one that goes beyond day thirty.
I plan to keep going over December and onto January until I finish. Realistically speaking, I know I might burn out bad by December. That’s why I am trying to write as much this month. Next month I might cut down my daily word count to one thousand a day and continue will into next year.
By the end of January, I will have finished 120 thousand words, the normal novel length, and finished the full novel.
That’s the dream.
That’s my goal.
See you all soon.
So, as expected, I’ve been writing a lot in the last few days. I’ve been trying to get ahead by writing more than the required amount, but it’s proven to be way too taxing. I am very happy that this year NaNoWriMo began over a weekend (especially one where we got to time travel one hour back in time). It let me jump start my brain.
I’m not sure if it was the summer or my graduate exam, but I was burned out. For the longest time, I couldn’t really think or write. All I could do was consume media. I guess I was getting mentally fat and lazy. Now, that I’ve begun my training, things are slowly getting back into place. I got to lose some mental weight!
Anyway, I have somewhere over 5k words done (I’m not really counting exactly as I am saving my files a little differently this year). Instead of having a single large file, I am creating a new one a day. Because of last years escapade, a terrible incident that involved my flash drive losing about 10k words after the loss of a single file, I reasoned I should keep multiple files, one for each day. On top of that, I am using drop box too. So everything is backed up in two computers and the cloud.
And although I said I would not be posting chapter long things, I wanted to post some excerpts here and there with every update. So here’ something from today’s amount. Please know that following some advice from fellow writers, I am not revising, so this might have some errors or repetitions. I am trying different things as I go.
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